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this journal is now defunct. i have a private blog where i keep my thoughts. i no longer want a public journal. |
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[Mar. 1st, 2008|02:06 am] |
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my dreams have become mixed with my waking life. i am on the diverge. |
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| draumtid |
[Feb. 27th, 2008|05:37 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | raleigh | ] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | old times, old times. | ] |
someone with a ponytail. male? i think female. it was above someone who'd fallen into a square hole in the attic floor. dark skin. arabesque ponytail.
turned into an arab man. i looked at him and he appeared like a normal arab man: long, convex nose, dark hair, dark skin. i looked away and then back at him and his face was grossly distorted. his head and upper-face were tiny and his midface and mouth and chin were enormous. he had a mass of nosehairs sticking out far past his left nostril - the left side of his face was much larger than his right, too. he pulled some of them out and there was a lot of encrusted mucous.
i looked away and then back at him. his face had decayed and fallen away. there were insects crawling in and out of holes in his flesh. someone commented about how gross it was. i was just confused.
i looked away and then back. his head had been nearly entirely skeletalized and all i could see was a collapsed mass of bone and sinew. it looked like the devoured remains of a grassland animal, like the remains of a ribcage. there were still some insects. grass began to grow and this girl i used to know propositioned me. i was disgusted but intrigued.
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there was a body hanging in my closet in cary. it was decomposing and the torso and legs had actually fallen off from the neck and head. there were purple-red veins and arteries and congealed blood dangling from the head. i pulled on them and all the brain matter inside the head followed. i tried to let go in horror but the mass of tissue kept sticking to me. |
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[Feb. 27th, 2008|03:23 pm] |
depolarization
overshoot
repolarization
after-hyperpolarization
repeat. |
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[Feb. 13th, 2008|02:44 pm] |
"I see what you're doing," I said. "It's a pretty transparent psychological trick. You're trying to foster empathy by treating the white people in the room the way many black people in America claim to be treated on a daily basis."
"'Claim' to be treated?" he replied, his voice betraying how eager he was to try and expose me as a racist.
"Yes, 'claim', because it's a nearly impossible task to experimentally verify that 'most' black Americans are ignored in day to day life. It's a matter of what you choose to believe - and I put emphasis on the word 'choice'. I choose to believe that there is much truth in the claims made by black Americans that they are passed over and forgotten not just by the government, but by the majority group of white Americans. There's no way to tell for sure either way.
"The same goes for race in general. I choose to believe that the mental differences between the races are, at base, insignificant if they exist at all. All data thusfar collected points to the opposite of this conclusion, but I have made the conscious decision to hold out for the possibility that years of malnutrition, lack of education and apathy are responsible for the differences we have recorded between the races. This hypothesis is currently untestable, and I don't think there will ever come a day when it well be.
"I have chosen to believe that I live in a world where the people who stare back at me when I walk down the street are, in some meaningful way, the same as I am. I am a white American who is a part of the economic and intellectual elite, but I have made the decision to believe that these things are not important when it comes to the measure of man."
"What is important, then?" he asked.
"I don't know," I replied. |
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[Feb. 6th, 2008|12:48 am] |
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[Jan. 18th, 2008|09:08 pm] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | death in june - only europa knows | ] |
Eyes like little dreams
Come true
We are all
Treading water
Especially in the new
Europa!
With all it's satellites
We'll see
The blossoming of the judas tree
And colour infidelity
That weeping wound
That's hard to see
From my circle I'll never stray
Or follow clay feet of yesterday
To broken circles
Well left behind
Those foreign hands
On foreign times
And in their wake
I'll disagree
To cast my own nativity
For misjudged moments
Of misjudged times
Are for misjudged lives
That misjudge mine
Our dreams
Our dreams they never go
To devils above
And grey rainbows
Spilt seed on stony ground
The only sperm
That ants surround
My hands
My wounds
And nothing else
I smell traitor
Time the divider |
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[Dec. 16th, 2007|12:01 am] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | tenhi - varpuspäivä | ] |
i had a dream last night. there was a beautiful egyptian woman who sang this song:
if you keep on dreaming,
i will keep on sleeping,
i will keep on dreaming, too.
the melody, my brother tells me, was pelagian. she was very beautiful. i can't figure out what the dream means. |
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[Nov. 29th, 2007|01:35 am] |
she regurgitates everything she senses like a strung out bulimic whore...
this has ceased to be amusing.
oh, you see it, don't you? in their eyes... gleaming... startling in their voyeurism.
don't presume to suck
my
dick
don't you love him?
who doesn't?
honesty is jealousy is psychosis is lo, lo, lo...
i tire of this affair.
don't presume to-
presume to what, LIE? you of all people-
don't interrupt me.
don't cry. |
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[Nov. 29th, 2007|01:34 am] |
'min hat er elska fyre meg'
the converse is also true. |
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| in case you were entertaining any hope for our species |
[Nov. 14th, 2007|03:42 pm] |
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| | septycal gorge - growing seeds of decay | ] |
the top 10 listened-to artists on last.fm currently are:
- radiohead
- the beatles
- red hot chili peppers
- muse
- coldplay
- foo fighters
- linkin park
- metallica
- the killers
- nirvana
upkasta...
(also, if you like any of these acts, let me know so i can remove you) |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2007|05:26 am] |
impish laughter echoing
into grinning darkness
glory to sin
stench of the impaled
fills my fucking head |
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| The Reaper |
[Oct. 30th, 2007|02:20 pm] |
Through the fields the reaper goes
Piling sheaves on sheaves in rows;
Hills, not sheaves, are these.
Where he passes howls the earth,
Howl the echoing seas.
All the night the reaper reaps,
Never stays his hands nor sleeps,
Reaping endlessly;
Whets his blade and passes on...
Hush, and let him be.
Hush, he cares not how men writhe
With naked hands against the scythe.
Wouldst thou hide in field or town?
Where thou art, there he will come;
He will reap thee down.
Serf and landlord,
Great and small;
Friendless wandering singer, - all,
All shall swell the sheaves that grow to mountains;
Even the Tsar shall go.
And me too the scythe shall find
Cowering alone behind
Bars of iron; swift and blind,
Strike, and pass, and leave me, stark
And forgotten in the dark.
Taras Shevchenko |
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| The Testament |
[Oct. 30th, 2007|02:17 pm] |
Dig my grave and raise my barrow
By the Dnieper-side
In Ukraina, my own land,
A fair land and wide.
I will lie and watch the cornfields,
Listen through the years
To the river voices roaring,
Roaring in my ears.
When I hear the call
Of the racing flood,
Loud with hated blood,
I will leave them all,
Fields and hills; and force my way
Right up to the Throne
Where God sits alone;
Clasp His feet and pray...
But till that day
What is God to me?
Bury me, be done with me,
Rise and break your chain,
Water your new liberty
With blood for rain.
Then, in the mighty family
Of all men that are free,
May be sometimes, very softly
You will speak of me?
Taras Shevchenko |
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| i did it all for the lulz |
[Oct. 26th, 2007|03:59 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | raleigh | ] |
| [ | Eg kjenner meg |
| | tired and tired | ] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | novy svet - traicion | ] |
this fucking hag whom i've come across many a time on wikipedia and elsewhere really annoys the fuck out of me. she'd have us all believing that before the no-good, awful, very bad indo-europeans showed up with their 9-inch cut cocks and bronze halberds, europe was populated entirely by fag-loving archfeminists who ate granola and never made war on anything save capitalism.
this isn't just probably-wrong,* it's intellectually dishonest. i've read through a bit of this lady's last book and i must say, there is no way to scientifically draw the conclusions she's made. her work is a prime example of agenda-based liberal pseudoscience. while probably better than right-wing agenda-based pseudoscience, it still makes me want to exhume and skullfuck her corpse.
*the pre-indo-europeans were probably as misogynistic and anti-gay as the indo-europeans. humans in those days were all pretty much the same and i dare say we haven't made a hell of a lot of improvement since, judging from the state of things.
on an unrelated note, i was driving home yesterday and it occurred to me that there are probably only a few million people on earth actually doing anything that is helping us in the grand scheme of things. thanks to those few million and fuck off and die to the rest of you faggots. |
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| The Parable of the Old Man and the Young |
[Oct. 23rd, 2007|07:04 pm] |
So Abram rose, and clave the wood, and went,
And took the fire with him, and a knife.
And as they sojourned both of them together,
Issac, the first-born spake and said, My Father,
Behold the preparations, the fire and iron,
But where the lamb for this burnt offering?
Then Abram bound the youth with belts and straps,
And builded parapets and trenches there.
And stretched forth the knife to slay his son.
When lo! an angel called him out of heaven,
Saying, Lay not a hand upon the lad,
Neither do anything to him. Behold,
A ram, caught in a thicket by its horns;
Offer the Ram of Pride instead of him.
But the old man would not do so, but slew his son,
And half the seed of Europe, one by one.
(Wilfred Owen) |
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[Oct. 18th, 2007|01:01 am] |
silly, hairless animal -
dragged screaming from the bathroom.
rabbi, rabbi! clap with the gun
(make sure it doesn't go off.)
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white fire; it hurts in there
staring at the wall, empty
and not aware at all.
at one with the universe
(Fraud ~ Freud ~ [e] schöne
Götterfunken... Tochter aus
Elysium!) you see,
i'm not there and neither are you.
alle Menschen werden
Brüder
vu dayn sa[n]ft[er] Flügel weilt.
leer, leer, leer
tomt, tomt, tomt
if i say it in English...
bile.
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and you will forget
all the pretty things
og du skal gløyma
all the pretty things
und du wirst vergessen
everything
i've fucking
said. |
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[Jul. 25th, 2007|06:00 am] |
Ekande genom berg och dalar
skall våra hymner åter skalla.
Dånande över skog och mark
skall krigstrummans kall ljuda –
då resningen mot skuggfolkets styre begynner:
blod skall flöda i Svea Rike! |
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| HASATAN |
[Jul. 13th, 2007|04:14 pm] |
Opposer, opposer,
Core, marrow and essence of my Will,
I renounce this flesh in the name of thy praise,
To kindle the coals of Salvation's spring.
I drank of Hell to cleanse my soul of God,
To reach the light in which thou dwellest. |
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| Posted using LJ Talk... |
[May. 6th, 2007|04:33 am] |
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and lulz |
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| Posted using LJ Talk... |
[May. 6th, 2007|04:33 am] |
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woe |
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[May. 6th, 2007|04:33 am] |
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hellfire |
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[Apr. 15th, 2007|11:08 pm] |
"Did the Jews of Germany say that the land was really theirs, stolen from them by the Germans and that they would work until the day they became the majority and take the land and make it 'Judea'?"
-Meir Kahane
Kahane Tzadak! |
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| tilbaka igjen |
[Mar. 6th, 2007|06:19 pm] |
i am back. further entries are friends only. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2006|12:05 am] |
Über allen Gipfeln
Ist Ruh,
In allen Wipfeln
Spürest du
Kaum einen Hauch;
Die Vögelein schweigen in Walde.
Warte nur, balde
Ruhest du auch. |
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[Oct. 29th, 2006|12:42 pm] |
"If you take out uncovered meat and place it outside ... and the cats come to eat it ... whose fault is it, the cats' or the uncovered meat's? The uncovered meat is the problem. If she was in her room, in her home, in her hijab, no problem would have occurred."
-- Sheik Taj Aldin al Hilali, Australia's subsequently-suspended-from-preaching top Islamic cleric, on immodestly dressed women |
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[Oct. 24th, 2006|05:41 pm] |
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| | kaplan | ] |
| [ | Eg kjenner meg |
| | KOLDBRANN | ] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | venetian snares | ] |
i saw the most nordic girl on the bus today. interestingly enough, she was icelandic. most of the icelandic people i have seen/run into have been upper-paleolithic or dalic or something - generally robust. but not this girl. she was tall and pale with firey red hair and all the other typically nordic facial/cranial dimensions. it was scary. she got off the bus too quickly for me to ask her if she spoke icelandic.
DONUT;;
GLASS PLATE.
i have been reading papers like a madman. today i read through this paper by a german woman[?] on double twist deformations and the heisenberg algebra. twist deformations seem like they could simulataneously quantize and super-ize... funny how everything being done these days it seems is related to the artin braid group and yang-baxter equation. HOPF HOPF
WHAT, HOPF;;
i blew off the mormons today. it was just too early to smash their belief system. the old testament god is really quite locally isomorphic to odin and ra and such. christians have no claim to a cool god. rorz.
in other news, there is a dead cockroach in my room and i am quitting the abilify. makes me too fucking nauseous, while it certainly helps a ton. i think back to risperdal now. that one made me feel good and not want to vomit all the time. i think.
this music is so fucking bizarre. i am applying to Duke, UNC-CH, Stony Brook and Berkeley for graduate school. i think i'll get into UNC and SB, maybe Duke and probably not Berkeley. but hey, i can hope.
also i have been downloading a ton of prog rock lately. goblin, tull, the syn, ain soph etc. i like goblin a lot. probably primarily because of what they're associated with, but meh.
also, while i detest opeth, wikipedia puts them and sigur ros in the same category. ... ... kva?
also, new york sucked. langweilig. to cupajoe. |
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[Oct. 18th, 2006|10:39 pm] |
because every person on the planet needs to hear this song, i put it on my ftp.
http://www4.ncsu.edu/~dnfleish/Likbor.mp3
Bondn før oppstaobeel aolaina han for, ottamaole ra va å aovabøre sto.
utn styvingen fø i huga han va, sjao jite budkapen pao Flo.
Fram om Flatadn han komen va, ai bøsele folkafer han skimta.
Ittekårt dao han skjøna ke so va pao fere,
hildt han seg fø bringao å ba ti vaor Herre.
Ai likbør va pao veg.
Bondn ondrast ken følgje fø va, dao børi kom nerare fekk han svar.
Oppi kjistao laog grandn sin far, likblainke, velstelde, daue han va.
Bondn taig om dinna hiska hendingi, skolde verkle dauen ta grandn sin far?
To nete gjikk å bondn fekk svar,
fø ve kvelda feetabeel henta dauen grandn sin far.
Likbøri stemde. Faren va daue. |
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| vandringar |
[Oct. 17th, 2006|08:36 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | class | ] |
| [ | Eg kjenner meg |
| | fuartd | ] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | windir (in my head) | ] |
unabashed, the Devil laughed
glowed his eyes, y-shrout in ash.
words of his, once those of light
lie now, murdr'ng with sulph'rous might
he is he who, down below
forged his hate and soot and- no!
what, he
pulled out a crow-
a pitchfilth
feathered sow
who whispered
to me thus:
God is on high,
and you
are dust. |
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[Oct. 12th, 2006|06:27 pm] |
in case any was wondering, the new carpathian forest (Fuck You All!!!! - Caput tuum in ano est) is am grymlichkeitigstens. in case you doubt my assertion, here are some of the track titles:
The frostbitten Woodland of NORWAY
Start up the INCINERATOR (Here comes another useless fool)
Submit to SATAN!!!
Everyday (sic) I must SUFFER!
SHUT UP, There is NO excuse to live...
oh my god yes. |
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[Oct. 11th, 2006|02:32 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | aldri heimad | ] |
| [ | Eg kjenner meg |
| | sjuk | ] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | ingen | ] |
In the bleak midwinter, frosty wind made moan,
Earth stood hard as iron, water like a stone;
Snow had fallen, snow on snow, snow on snow,
In the bleak midwinter, long ago. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2006|11:36 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | OYLJA | ] |
| [ | Eg kjenner meg |
| | VOICED velar fricative | ] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | AmON AMMARTH | ] |
O JA EG VERGAT ATT DO HEV INGEN FYLING SAVE EINSAMKEIT, NOSTALGAE AND SENSELAUS KVAZI-GLIKLIKHKEYT.............]]\\;\.\.\
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LULZ |
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| fever dreaming |
[Oct. 5th, 2006|04:29 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | halliwell | ] |
| [ | Eg kjenner meg |
| | not great | ] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | summoning | ] |
this woman gave birth simultaneously in a tub for a water-birth and on a table for posterity. her child, screaming and covered in blood and amniotic fluid, had the longest skull i'd ever seen. otherwise the child seemed normal. soft skull. wide eyes. then i was traveling up and down transversally over a lake, running into a lot insects. hard things were falling on my head. i was in some teeny-bopper music video called "bip bip bip bip bip bip." the faces were all distorted with swirls and grimaces. this old woman tried to seduce me in some mansion made only of long hallways, her room and a large bathroom. the bathroom had several inches of heated water on the floor and a butler (former lover of hears) was swimming around in it telling me i should leave. the water was actually amniotic fluid. the baby came back and wouldn't do anything except stare me in the eye and cling to its mother. a spanish woman then tried to seduce me but he husband intervened and tried to get me to play good cop/bad cop with him and this other guy. he wanted me to take off my clothes but it was too cold. he got angry and disappeared. this girl got kicked out of the lake society. there were these miniature people living on the edge of the lake kept making something for some evil overlord by a large fence which made an annulus around the lake. i can't remember what they were making but they were primitive creatures. clearly human at one point but their mouths were far too large and skulls too small. they look like harlequin fetuses. i wanted to help them but i got attacked by the overlord and some of his redneck friends. they chased me until i got angry and started chasing them. eventually they came back for me and pinned me down and were going to pour molten gold down my throat. i woke up.
i am very groggy now. |
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| pfad walhallas |
[Oct. 4th, 2006|05:44 pm] |
du skal leva i evighet, min ven - i rika vaarherre, vaarfar, allfaren
bis zwielicht dieser welt, und weiter.
rest in peace. |
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| nucleon fields |
[Oct. 3rd, 2006|08:25 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | halliwell | ] |
| [ | Eg kjenner meg |
| | groggy; better | ] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | enslaved | ] |
back to meds, it seems.
i've been deteriorating slowly over the past couple of weeks (i quit all the drugs in mid-july) but it became exponential during the last 48-72 hours. i would sit in front of my computer with a book and read about a million different topics intensely for 10-15 minutes and then all of a sudden my mind would become a total void. (note: this post may be a bit disjointed, as i'm reaclimating to zyprexa and have just woken up from a long nap induced by said drug.) this would happen a dozen or so times a day and by the time the day was over, my mind was a total wreck.
the gelatinous nature of objects would come and go; i got scared very easily; the intensity of colors would fade in and out. it felt like someone was pulling on my brain lengthwise. i was markedly more paranoid than usual - i'm usually good about that, as i can normally catch myself forming irrational thoughts before i act or speak on them. invasive thoughts of death and murder. the hiss started to come back to a certain extent. occasionally the 'starkness' of an object would become overwhelming and i'd have to leave whatever room i was in. detatched from reality half of the day. when i wrote, i couldn't write in any alphabet that made any sense. by the afternoon of today, i was totally unable to construct a coherent sentence. trainwreck.
the worst part about all of this, though, was that my mood has been stable for over two months and was stable through this whole ordeal, which has sent me and my shrink reeling in terms of a diagnosis. he says (and i agree to an extent) that i was getting ready to enter another mixed state, as my symptoms recently match very well those i had last summer when i got canned. i don't know. anything seems possible.
though he's going to fucking call my parents (they have power of attorney over me) and they're going to call me and ask five hundred billion questions about my mental state. also, he asked me today if i thought i needed to be hospitalized again. that caused quite a pang of terror. i -really- need to graduate this year and i have far too much work to do in the coming weeks to be shipped to the hospital for an indeterminate amount of time. also, the hospital is a terrible place. i guess i could file for disability with the university (...) as when i dropped my classes last fall, the counselor i spoke with told me it might not be a bad idea.
but yes, i'm back on meds. the primary reason is that my doctor is fucking making take a drug screening (...) and when they do that, they're gonna test my lithium levels (something i've been avoiding since june). my secondary reason is that at this point i feel i might actually need them. i was miserable yesterday and last night and today i was just losing it. 1200mg lithium and 2.5-7.5mg zyprexa daily for the time being. i was really hoping he'd write me a prescription for geodon or abilify as while zyprexa works quite well, it really knocks the shit out of me - plus i'll have to start watch what i eat, as zyprexa turns my stomach into a bottomless pit.
that aside, my classes are really quite cool. russian is easy as is to be expected; a funny thing happened in there on monday. we were talking about the why/because construction and the use of знать and out of nowhere he calls on me to see if i know the etymology знать. interestingly enough i figured it out right then and there. зна- is cognate with english "know" and greek "gno-" via the slavic shift (PIE *g > [P]Sl [*]ж > Sl z). slavic is pretty archaic.
lie groups is great. we have homework on universal covering spaces due friday and our first exam next monday. left-invariant vector fields, lie algebras derived from lie groups, phi-relatedness, 1-parameter groups etc. pretty easy stuff, if i can remeber the computations. i'm moderately proficient in latex now, which is very useful. kheyfets's relativity class is really great. i take notes furiously as i have realized of late that i won't get many opportunities to learn from someone who is so physics-oriented but technically in math. we did a rundown of the stress-energy tensor today (a topic that is notoriously opaque in the literature) and we start the geometrization of gravity on thursday. kogan's relativity class is also pretty good, though her inexperience with teaching high-level classes is pretty apparent. i haven't been in a few days due to the above nonsense, but i'm looking forward to going back. i missed the levi-civita connection and christoffel symbols (easy topics, but it would be nice to see a person teaching them, instead of just re-reading o'neill for the thousandth time) though we'll surely be covering them in kheyfets's class.
anyway, school is good and/but very busy. i'll probably be grading for this thai grad student's calc 3 class. fun fun. 500 bucks for the semester (would've been a thousand if i'd gotten to grade the first test...) but the drawback is that i have to grade 50 tests in 48 hours four times throughout the semester. i'm going to try and pull it off.
god my head is foggy. |
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[Sep. 14th, 2006|08:10 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | kaplan | ] |
| [ | Eg kjenner meg |
| | brain buzzing tainwreck lulz | ] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | nothing. | ] |
i forsee in the not-too-distant future large groups of people claiming that nazi germany, too, was a jewish puppet regime.
you know - so that the elders of zion could create israel and dominate the world, most especially the arabs because if history has shown us one thing and one thing only, it's that jews fucking hate arabs.
vomit.
anyway. my brain is friend from 3 hours of caffeine, second-hand smoke and tensor manipulation. massive headache. and i still have to do rewrites for U(n) subset of SO(2n), GL(n,C) subset of GL+(2n,R), GL(n,R) intersect U(n) = O(n) and O(2n) = SO(2n) x_\tau Z_2. also i have forgotten how to turn the equation for a vector field into a differential equation. you'd think i'd be able to remember something that simple... but i can't. ugh.
quantum groups and braided monoidal categories at very interesting, however. i need to check out smolin's book trashing string theory, LQG, etc. fulp was telling me and jeremy about it today and it sounds grand. TQFT! in kassel's quantum groups book, 400 pages in, he actually uses the word "quantization"! in a purely mathematical place! (amongst quantum enveloping algebras, i believe). q-calculus itself seems very quantum/quantized/related to the idea of quantization.
but then again, i've spent the past two years trying to find ways of getting around or even ditching the entire idea of quantization.
egh. now i go fooding with gan. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2006|03:15 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | raleigh | ] |
| [ | Eg kjenner meg |
| |  drunk | ] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | enesbeem | ] |
i realized today that i don't hate them for what they are - that i hate them for what they will never be.
"du bist wertlos für mich, ohne lebensgeist"
dei werden myta...
(lulz)
also, i can't even begin to imagine how unbelievably paranoid i'd have to be to believe that the jews control every aspect of international politics - and are doing so because their blood is just so fucking unclean and probably gay and/or womanly.
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[Aug. 29th, 2006|02:19 am] |
open up your mind and
ku ku ku, baby
time will stand still for you |
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| new right australia/new zealand |
[Aug. 1st, 2006|04:58 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | kaplan | ] |
| [ | Eg kjenner meg |
| | tsjipr | ] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | amon amarth in my head | ] |
The New Right is organised throughout Europe and beyond. We are strongly opposed to liberalism, democracy and egalitarianism and fight to restore the eternal values and principles that have become submerged beneath the corrosive tsunami of the modern world. The New Right has an interest in the various strands of thought connected with the Traditionalists, the Revolutionary Conservatives; the Nouvelle Droit; and the Eurasianists.
http://www.newrightausnz.blogspot.com/ |
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| Holland moves to ban Holocaust denial |
[Jun. 16th, 2006|12:16 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | raleigh | ] |
| [ | Eg kjenner meg |
| | earache | ] |
| [ | Eg høyrer på |
| | solefald (in my head) | ] |
( the article is behind the cut, though the link seems to be broken )
holocaust deniers are silly and crazy enough that they can be flatly ignored. they're conspiracy theorists at best, jew-bashing conspiracy theorists at worst. who cares? these are the same people who think we never landed on the moon and that israel planned 9/11.
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| quality over quantity plz (ftw, k) |
[Jun. 9th, 2006|05:21 pm] |
i really do love drinking when it's still light out.
i stopped taking my lithium for a few days. by the middle of day three, the confusion and incoherence started coming back, so i made the [...] decision to start taking it again.
i quit smoking on the first. oh god someone curbstomp me.
i also can't stop watching romper stomper.
also the new enslaved album is very good.
"y'gon' stomp 'im for us, davey?"
meh.
intro to probability blows, but i'm definitely going to pass.
apparently my mom is helping the head of the math dept out with something... so in return, he's going to "help me out with grad school." i really do hope that that means "get me into grad school." in any case, he's going to help in some way.
after this shit in summer school, it's off to oregon with megan and my family for McGahan-Dehn reunion '06. it's going to be like 2 weeks before i turn 21. bull. shit.
when i get back i have like ten days to clean the absolute asscunt out of my shithole apartment so i can move on the 31st. i'm moving across the street from megan and into this awesome place with ronnie and brian. it's going to be grim. i turn 21 two days after i move in... then i have three whole fucking weeks to drown myself in alcohol before school starts.
this fall i'm taking the motherload of awesomeness. i have a math-oriented general relativity class that i already know for the most part, a physics-oriented relativity class that will probably make very little sense, lie groups with my advisor and most likely an individual project on spinors and twistors.
i'm hoping to maybe give a talk on spinors and twistors, or at least spinors and spinor calculus and the like.
though i still haven't read anything about the motivation for the twistor equation and hence twistor space.
"smack 'em if he's yellow, smack 'em if he's black, smack 'em til he fucks off and doesn't come back."
then there's christmas break. no idea about that.
thereafter, megan [probably] leaves for prague. i [probably] graduate. that summer...? graduate school the following fall...?
kven veit? eg ikkje. |
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[Jun. 7th, 2006|07:59 pm] |
Christian metal band Stryper recorded a heavy metal version of Amazing Grace, titled 10,000 years, which came out in their album 2005 album Reborn
...øl tid |
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